I never really realized how many "bittersweet moments" there are in life.
The word bittersweet is perfect for describing so many things in my life right now. I can't complain about things because there is something good in every bad thing. It is truly my motivation in life, just knowing something good ALWAYS comes out of something bad. I have so much on my mind and I can't seem to let it all out.
Moving these last few days has showed me how independent I really am. Even though it would be nice to have family/friends helping, I don't need them. I am fully capable of handing almost everything on my own. It simply is bittersweet...or just growing up :)
L&L
-Jenny
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Monday, June 27, 2011
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Good times
So just to let you know, I keep a journal. Actually I have a few of them and when I write it helps with my emotions and in a sense it is therapy to me. I recently noticed that the only times I write is when I am sad/upset about something or I am stressed. I have a really bad memory and I tend to forget many things I have done in my life. So it is nice to be able to look back and see how much I have grown. However, because I only write when I am down, I do not have too many positive memories to look back on in my journal. Sooooo long story short I am so excited to be able to write on this blog and write all my happy moments.
These last few days have been amazing. STRESSFUL yet amazing. I feel as though I am learning so much in school and my mind/brain is expanding. As lame as that sounds I do feel like I am growing as a person. Also, I met with someone special today and I was reenforced everything I believe in. I don't want to say to much about it because it is personal but it was amazing being told everything that I feel and have felt for years. Can't wait to see what is coming up in my life however, I am enjoying each moment that passes. :)
L&L
-jenny
These last few days have been amazing. STRESSFUL yet amazing. I feel as though I am learning so much in school and my mind/brain is expanding. As lame as that sounds I do feel like I am growing as a person. Also, I met with someone special today and I was reenforced everything I believe in. I don't want to say to much about it because it is personal but it was amazing being told everything that I feel and have felt for years. Can't wait to see what is coming up in my life however, I am enjoying each moment that passes. :)
L&L
-jenny
Thursday, June 16, 2011
It's starting
...School started today and it was everything I knew it would be..not fun. But when bad or not fun/good things come my way I always look at the glass half full and I know that by doing these classes I will graduate on time and have a light load when I get back from Barcelona. So I have to do it because in the end it will be worth it.
Today I had a great conversation with my best friend breezy. I found out many things about myself that I know I need to work on. I have so much to offer and I can't wait till it all pays off. :)
I also skyped with my sister Kennadee tonight for the first time. She got a skype account today and I was so excited because I now can talk to her besides facebook.
Maybe it's just one of those days but I feel blahh and I can't help it. I'm nervous about tomorrow....and I don't think i'll be able to sleep much. When I was bored today I was looking at things on the internet and I found a few sayings that I fell in love with
1. life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. If it changes you, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
2. I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn how to let go. Things go wrong, so that you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
3. Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will come after you....
4. Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses these with love, but in reality LOVE is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain, and makes us feel wonderful again.
L&L
-Jenny
Today I had a great conversation with my best friend breezy. I found out many things about myself that I know I need to work on. I have so much to offer and I can't wait till it all pays off. :)
I also skyped with my sister Kennadee tonight for the first time. She got a skype account today and I was so excited because I now can talk to her besides facebook.
Maybe it's just one of those days but I feel blahh and I can't help it. I'm nervous about tomorrow....and I don't think i'll be able to sleep much. When I was bored today I was looking at things on the internet and I found a few sayings that I fell in love with
1. life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones that don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. If it changes you, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
2. I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn how to let go. Things go wrong, so that you can appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
3. Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will come after you....
4. Everyone says that love hurts, but thats not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses these with love, but in reality LOVE is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain, and makes us feel wonderful again.
L&L
-Jenny
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
the countdown begins....
85 days till I leave...
There is so much to do and not enough time. I am days away from finishing my Junior year at Santa Clara University. Once I am done I then have 3 summer school courses to take, and working to save up. Things seem to be never ending but I know they will be worth it all in the end.
I can't wait to experience a whole new culture and lifestyle...I hope to be grateful for everything in these next few months because I won't have them back till the end of december.
My key that gets my through each day is "everything happens for a reason." (Even if that means being late to work, being stuck in traffic, missing class, hitting every red light on the way home...no matter what is might be, there is a reason for it)
L&L
-Jenny
There is so much to do and not enough time. I am days away from finishing my Junior year at Santa Clara University. Once I am done I then have 3 summer school courses to take, and working to save up. Things seem to be never ending but I know they will be worth it all in the end.
I can't wait to experience a whole new culture and lifestyle...I hope to be grateful for everything in these next few months because I won't have them back till the end of december.
My key that gets my through each day is "everything happens for a reason." (Even if that means being late to work, being stuck in traffic, missing class, hitting every red light on the way home...no matter what is might be, there is a reason for it)
L&L
-Jenny
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